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This is a song about marriage and relationships and divorce and break ups and how much all of it sucks. All the pressure and heart ache that comes from it. Even successful relationships (as in the ones that haven't soured -- yet). After watching Take This Waltz, I was brought to tears and it really made me feel like falling in love is the worst thing you could ever do. I didn't quite delve into that subject matter as much as I meant to, more so just "marriage sucks, don't do it". The first verse is about someone specific, the rest is not. I could definitely write a lot more about this one but I won't.

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I met you eleven months after
the fragmentation of my reality
and after we were dating for five days
you celebrated your birthday
by smoking cigars with all of your best
friends that you don't know anymore
by coming to my show the one where I hugged that girl
that was not you but I swore it was
and later that night the moon gave birth to your
insecurities regards to me
but I'm just a sad kid searching
for something kind of shiny
I'm just a sad kid looking
for something rusty

I don't ever want to fall in love.

I'm sorry but I'm not sure that I
see the point in getting married
especially when we're young and dumb
and too stupid to understand that
sometimes life just
sucks, yeah
sometimes life just
sucks and when the
first lul hits we'll chase the first car
and bite the first tire and give up our first love
once the car stops the gap will be filled
with adrenaline when the honey moon starts
and it'll be great for a few months or a
couple of years (if you're lucky)
and then life will catch up and just
be
and you'll think of the fish that you
set free

I don't ever want to fall in love

A lot of my friends married their high school
sweetheart, how foolish (lovely) but with the
way a lot of us were raised we're in constant
fear that we will go to hell
for even the smallest of
fuck ups
because loving God just ain't
enough, right? wrong.
so we put that ring on their finger to
prevent adultery in the eyes of
God, in the eyes of
God

Sound Clip - Take This Waltz
"How's your life?"
"You mean, am I seeing anyone?"
"Noooo! I don't wanna... yes."
"Sometimes... No, not really."
"Do you have a... thing?"
"No, I don't... I don't think so."
"You said you're not seeing anyone"
"Something's you do in life, they stick."

credits

from I'm Afraid to Be Alive, released April 1, 2014
Sound Clip from Take This Waltz

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