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about

This song is about me being a pack rat and a weird experience I had in Eugene after a show with Billy Mack Collector.

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i hide skeleton keys throughout my house
for all these treasure chests i keep around
filled to the brim with crocodiles
and keepsakes that i revile

cause i am a gatherer
i am a pack rat
i'm a deranged hermit
and just like the squirrel i hoard hoard hoard
until i can no more
then i hoard some mo-ore
for i am a collector of
things that make me sad sad sad re-
minding me what i don't have

i went questing for the night in eugene
and several glistening elves were seen
they filled my brain up with poison
knocking me out til the next morning

where i awoke in a daze
to find myself in a trading post
so i reached for my silver
instead i found a dove dove dove
paper is what it was made of
and i was more than perplexed
when i did unfold it
i found remnants of love love love re-
minding me that it's not so bad to be a-
lone alone alo-ho-ho-one because
good things come to those who wait

"let's say since you were little and you always dreamed of someday getting a lion and you wait and you wait and you wait and you wait and the lion doesn't come, then along comes a giraffe. you can be alone or you can be with the giraffe."
"i'd wait for the lion."
"that's why i worry about you."
beginners
41:54 - 42:31

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from I'm Afraid to Be Alive, released April 1, 2014
Sound Clip from Beginners.

My friend, Chef Lemler, is responsible for me having watched the movie the sound clip is from. It's also one of her favorite quotes from film.

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DIY Folk-Punk // Anti-Folk // Honesty Folk from Oregon.

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