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This song uses the story of one of my failed relationships (surprise!) to emphasize the meaning of friendship. At least, that's how I see it.

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Way back in High School when I was just 16
I got some stupid hair cut and went to some local show
and when I got home I had a new message on MySpace
from some pink-haired girl saying "Carlson, I love your haircut!"
and we quickly became the best of friends

and when we fell in love I took her for granted
I thought she'd always be there -- stupidly, then I neglected her
and by the time I realized that I needed her the most
It was already too late and the pinkest penguin
had already melted

While I don't regret loving you
I do kind of wish that I never dated you
because I'm not sure it's worth the risk of losing your best friend afterall,
I've yet to find a soul who knows me like you knew me
but I am hopeful that some day I might find that friend (but probably not)

I hate getting old-der and losing friends
but in their defense I'm a shitty shitty shitty shitty fucking friend
but I am trying to try to care because
I miss my old friends and I love my new friends
and I never ever want to lose a friend again

I'm tired of feeling alone all alone and I
know you're tired of feeling alone all alone too
and I just want you to know
that we don't have to be all alone alone

cause we can feel alone together
we can be alone with one another
we don't have to be all alone alone
no, we can be alone with one another
and I just want you to know
that I am here for you
cause I wanna be your friend
and I wanna fall in love again
with someone that's my friend

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from I'm Afraid to Be Alive, released April 1, 2014

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DIY Folk-Punk // Anti-Folk // Honesty Folk from Oregon.

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