I don't know if I could live anymore
and I still don't understand how you ever left this morgue
and I know that I knew that one day it'd come true
and this caterpiller will have one day flew

Far away to the northern coast
and leave me all alone, here in this morgue
and I know that I knew that one day it'd come true
and I'd finally learn the truth

about me -- ooooooo-woooooahh-wooooooahhhh

so I hate myself for all that I am every hair follicle and ev-er-y carbon based at-om
so I hate myself for who I've become because of the wrongs they've allowed me to have done
I deserve be alone in this frigid iced drawer after that look in your eyes, I belong here in this morgue
I've always been honest yet I have never spoke the truth so how can I ever expect someone to ever love me true?
when I don't love myself like Deborah loves her Brother (dexter reference) I'll be all alone oh I'll always be alone

but atleast I can take some solace in this pain that is all mine
cause it truely is all mine for it is unique to me
and no one will ever know what it's like to be me
despite our similarities I promise that we are all unique
I can leave my house and go from one coast to the other
but it will not change a thing because every city's just the same just
another carbon copy of woes I left behind suffocating and erradicating all of my kind

and here I am oh once again
prepared to learn what I learned before
that we're all monsters atleast sometimes

breaking bad season 3 episode 1
"how do you not hate yourself?"
"I did hate myself, for a long time. but it didn't stop me from drinking and getting high; it just made it that much worse. Self-hatred and guilt, it accomplishes nothing; it just stands in the way"
"Stands in the way of what?"
"True change"